Missing You madly...

We used to run together when we are in hurry.. we used to walk the untrodden ways together.. n do u remember we used to do so much silly n stupid things together.. those stupid moments make me cry when i miss you now..

The bank of the river we walked together are now very hot n dry.. they lack of our footsteps.. The mountains are waiting us to be in its arms.. The road we tramped together teases me for I am alone.. You know missing someone is the worst thing in this world...

Do you still remember the moments we smoked together hiding from this world.. but now i don't have anyone to hide with me.. so i left smoking.. n the places are empty now.. they told me they too are missing us.. may b those place are feeling like me as I now am alone.. Do you remember we used to quarrel in small matters... But i don't have anyone to debate now.. so I am silent and I don't have words... I feel I forgot to speak... Do you remember u used to sing n i used to admire your voice.. but now the lyrics of the song are lost in the dark dead world... and now i can't hear any voices around me..

I have become totally blind not to see the beautiness of this world without you.... I have become deaf for no one speaks to me... I have become dumb for no one is there to hear my feelings.. This is how my life going on without you.. still I am in hope that one day again we will be together to get back those moments.. I am in hope you will come back to make me speak... to make me laugh.. to make me listen.. and to make walk... Waiting you to come...
I am really miisssing you.. and feeling lonely.....

(To My beloved and best and best friend roshan)

Died for Love..

I sit in the park where I dwell,
For this girl I love so well.
She took my heart away from me,
Now she wants to set me free.
I see a boy on her side,
She says things to him she never said to me.
I ran home to cry on my bed,
Not a word to mother was said.
Father came home late that night,
He looked at me from left to right.
He saw me hanging from a rope,
He took his knife to cut me down.
And on my dress a note was found:
Dig my grave, Dig it deep.
Dig my grave, From head to feet.
And on the top, place a dove.
And remember this, I died for love...

A worthless Life

A village in darkness, very less use of lights, very few words are spoken, very less men to tramp in the blank road, rare to laugh but none was unhappy.

A boy very feared on himself, very self spoken to himself, very scared to speak, a dead life living but very few to comment oh his life.

Inspite of these, "A God" so cruel, "A God" so vivid, "A God" so rude but "The God" prayed by everyone.

Instead of them all, "An Angel" so pure, "An Angel" so true, "An Angel" so white, "An Angel" so cute, "An Angel" so loving, "An Angel" so caring and "An Angel" promising to light the village.

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Suddenly, the village became bright, So unique it looked, The village became noisy far to be listened, everyone's smile none to get angry, everything changed in a while and everything so great.

The boy smiled for the very first time. The boy told his name with loud voice to the world, The boy ran a long distance for the first time. So much joy and happiness he found, The boy dreamt for the first time and he overjoyed the dream.

The lights started to burn everynights. The songs started to be palyed till mid nights. The road became too busy. Every house was rhythmed with the laughters. And hence everyone compited to live more, to laugh more, to speak more and to fear very less.

The boy felt being in another world, he got words to speak, friends to laugh, society to envy him and he a different heart to love him.

Days changed, months changed and slowly "Lightness" started to show its power, everyone's got heated for the first time, "Words" showed its power and everyone became non-listener, everyone became runner and "Marathon" became useless, Everyone laughed uselessly the "Smiles" lost its meaning and everyone died for happiness and few got it. They felt themself as if they were no need of each other. They became perfect in each other.

The boy Spoke so much, The boy laughed so much, the boy lived so fearlessly but the boy lived so perfectly but he didn't get meaning of his life.

Everyone was now disturbed, nobody cared for each other, the smile laughed seeing the pains, the happiness clapped seeing the sorrows and the villagers lived a total evil dying life.

The boy tried to laugh, got a drop of tear, the boy tried to speak, the words lost in universe, the boy stepped a leg and he broke his leg. At the last the boy surrendered himself but got "An Hope".

"The Hope" introduced "An Angel"... She was far from the light, still she was burned with knowledge. She was far from the words, still has many best lyrics. She has little kind and loving heart and so many things to trust.

"The Angel" gave her words to make the boy speak, "The Angel" gave her support to make the boy walk. "The Angel" sung her lyrics to make the boy listen and "The Angel" gave her trust to make the boy perfect. But the boy listened the tunes of his darkness, walked the dead dark ways and the boy was again empty like in the beginning. "The Boy" became deaf for he listened so many words, the boy became no more of use for he got so many trust. Still the "The Angel" is singing her songs but not for "The Boy" who didn't listen her....

(my own true story)

A Short Letter

Dear..

I have been like a ghost because there is no sign of life in my movement. I couldn't sleep the whole night, thinking about you, wondering hours and hours....what if i close my eyes forever, what if my dreams remain unfulfilled. I stand right infront of mirror and i tell you...my eyes really plucked my heart. How can anyone be this much in love.

As it gets closer to a day i get more upset. I noe i hate the feelings i hav at the moment. It isn't that easy to miss someone and i realize only after meeting you that i m no longer strong at heart. At moment like this, i just wish love was never there, because the pain wouldn't be this much...Really missing you is so painful that i feel i will die anymoment.

How i wish you could know everythin bout this..I have always feared bout death, heard death is scary, cruel and cold but now i think i never knew what death is, i only know what is leaving you and how it feels to have you no more...touch wood! And after all these, for when she will leave me, i will have my death with me.

Love can make people go crazy and yes i m crazy..

Let Me Love You

There was once a guy who was very much in love with a girl. The sweet girl folded 1,000 pieces of papercranes as a gift to her beloved. Although, at that time he was just a student in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, that boy told her he was going to city and will never come back. He also told her that He cannot visualise any future for the both of them, so let's go their own ways there and then... heartbroken, the girl agreed.

When she regained his confidence, she worked hard day and night, slogging her body and mind just to make something out of herself. Finally with all these hardwork and with the help of friends, this girl had set up her own company...

"You never fail until you stop trying." she always told herself. "I must make it in life!"

One rainy day, while this girl was driving, she saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take her long to realise those were her ex-boyfriend's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, she drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot her in his luxury car. She wanted them to know that she wasn't the same anymore, she had her own company, car, condo, etc. She had made it in life!

Before the girl can realise, the couple was walking towards a cemetary, and she got out of her car and followed them...and she saw her ex-Boyfriend, a photograph of him smiling sweetly as ever at her from his tombstone... and she saw her precious papercranes in a bottle placed beside his tomb. His parents saw her. She walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, he did not leave for city at all. He was stricken ill with cancer. In his heart, he had believed that she will make it someday, but he did not want his illness to be his obstacle ... therefore he had chosen to leave her.

He had wanted his parents to put his papercranes beside him, because, if the day comes when fate brings her to him again she can take some of those back with her. The girl just wept ...the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again.

(though it is so tragic but the reality is alwyz bitter.. )

मेरो यो कस्तो दिन

किन किन आज बिहान देखि नै अलिक अनौठो लगिरहेको छ । सधैं भन्दा आज किन किन एकदम निराशा छाइरहेको छ । तरपनी आफ्नै भाग्य लाई दोश दिदै केही न केही हुने आशान्का मा कोठा बाट निस्के । निस्कने बित्तीकै खुट्टामा नरमरो तरिकाले ठेस लाग्यो । हरे शिव के हुने हो आज जस्तो लागि रह्यो । एक्छिन सोचे हुन बाकी के नै पो छ र ।

सधैं जस्तो परी लाई भेट्छु अनी सबै कुरा ठीक भाई हाल्छ नि जस्तो लाग्यो । तर फेरी परी आउने बेलामा बाहिर निस्कनु पर्‍यो अनी परीलाई भेट्न पनि पाईन । यो भन्दा नराम्रो के हुन पर्‍यो र जस्तो लाग्यो । तर करिब २ बजे तिर भेते कति खुशी लाग्यो मन मा भएको सबै कुरा पुगे जस्तो लाग्यो । तर आजको दिन नै खराब परी पनि रिसाएर भोली देखि भेट्दिन भनेर पो गईन ।

"कति कम्जोर रहेछ भाग्य " दीप श्रेष्ठ को यो गीत याद आयो । सधैं कम्जोरी मा नै बच्नु पर्ने भयो जस्तो लाग्यो । आफुलाई नै दोश दिउ आरु त कस्लाई क् भन्ने र शायद आँफैमा धेरै कम्जोरी भएको महसुस गरे अनी त केही गर्न मन नै लगेन ।

सोच्दै थिए आज चै केही गर्नु पर्ला । blog मा केही कुरा राम्रो लेख्नु पर्ला भनेर तर कस्तो opposite हुन पुग्यो । जता ततै बाट किन हो किन आज भोली त यस्तै मात्र हुन्छ । "सोछे जस्तो हुन्न जीवन" यो गीत एफएम मा बजिरहेको थियो । कस्तो गीत ले त झन mood नै अर्को बनाईदियो । सधैं हस्ने घाम लाई पनि आज नै बादल ले ढाकिदियो । सोचे प्रकृतिले पनि मलाई साथ दिन छोडेछ । धन्य हे ईश्वर मलाई कति दुख दिन सक्छस जस्तो लाग्यो ।

हेर्दै जाउ कहाँ सम्म पुगिने हो । जीवन जिउदिन भन्दा पनि बाँच्न पर्ने कस्तो बिडम्बना होल यो । अहिले त यो blog लेख्दा पनि निकै bore लागि रहेछ तर अहिले त यो ब्लग नै एउटा साथी भएको छ । तेसैले एही नै मन क कुरा हरु शरे गरौ जस्तो लगेर लेखे । लौ त अब आजलाई केही लेख्न mood नै बनेन तेसैले एती नै है । भोली कुनै नयाँ नौलो भयो भने चै लेख्नु पर्ल ।

My One True Love

As I awaken, each and every day,

Thoughts of love turn to you.

An unbreakable bond between us two,

A special love ever so true...

The warm glow in your eyes,

The sweet smile on your face;

Makes me want to hold you,

Forever in love's tender embrace.

The gentleness of your touch,

The sweet passion of your kiss.

Just a couple of many pleasures,

I longingly so miss...

The sound of your voice,

Is like a song in my heart,

Always bringing me happiness,

As it has done from our start.

We've shared many joys,

And also felt some sorrows,

Yet our future is filled,

Of wonderful tomorrows.

So, until that bright day,

Far away such as it seems,

You shall always be my one true love...

The woman of my dreams.

To My Angel

You are the very air that I breathe, the very love that I need, my heart, my soul, my everything. The sweetest of my memories come when I think of you. I remember the very first day that I saw you, I could not believe I was looking at a human being. I pinched myself the hardest one could ever do so as to wake myself up from the drunken stupor I was in. For a moment I believed I was in heaven; I even danced to the music the angels were singing. Upon opening my eyes I realized I was not in heaven but that an angel had come down to earth, just for me.

The music of your voice surpasses that of the greatest orchestra belting out its very best composition. Your skin is softer than the finest satin and glows radiantly illuminating like the sun, setting over a serene pool of crystal clear water. Your eyes dance like mermaids in the sunshine, promulgating the exotic beauty from within your innermost being. Words alone limit me to explaining exactly how I feel about you.

I can say you are the sole comforter to me, the only one who ever took the pain to understand me. You dry every tear that falls down my cheeks. Loving you is the best thing that ever happened to me and I will forever cherish the moments we have spent together.

Every night I dream of heaven, and I'd gotten used to the idea that they are looking for an angel, one that went missing the day you stepped into my life, the day all my sorrows were washed away and I took a step into the impossible, crossing the margin from natural to supernatural. You are my angel and forever you will be. The one whose memories I will treasure forever till the day I turn into an angel like you.

Love always,

Bibek

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MA ANI TIMI

"Ma ani Timi".. Yehi title bata nai suru garau hai hamro yo kahani... Ajhai pani yaad auchha pahilo patak timilai dekheko.. kasto ankha nai nahateko timro sundarta bata... soche timro najik auna paye.. sayad sabai bata tadhiyeko ma timro saath khojna puge.... ani sayad yo mero pukar bhagwan le sunnu bhayo ki ek din timi sanga online ma kura garna paye.. yesari nai "Ma Ani Timi" dui jana hami huna pugyau hai...

"Ma ani Timi" kati different chhau... Ma parii bhanchhu timilai kinaki Parii haru ramra hunchhan harek kura haru bata... ra timi testai chhau... "Ma Ani Timi" kati close chhau tara euta simana chha tyo closeness ma... yo zindagi ko yatra ma Timro saath ekchhin chhutda pani Malai eklo Mahasus hunchha... Timi kati kura garchhau.. Pheri kati mitho kura garchhau.. sayad yehi kura le nai "Ma Ani Timi" bhayeko hola hai... Mero sansar lai herne najar nai change garyau... Mero Maya ko paribhasa lai nai change garidiyau.. Kaile ekanta ma timilai samjhera Geet gungunauna man lagchha kaile afai ma hasna man lagchha ani kaile afai ma sansar chha jasto lagchha ta kaile afai runa pani man lagchha...

"Ma Ani Timi" Yeti najik chhau.. ek arka lai yeti maya ra care garchhau tara pani hami kunai so called mayalu jodi hoinau ni hai.. yehi kura ma kaile ta achhama lagchha ki kasari hami yeti maya ani bishwas garchhau ek arka lai... "Ma Ani Timi" yo sambandha lai K naam dine jasto lagchha kaile ta.. sayad sabai sambandha ko naam hudainan tara pani tyo sambandha sabai bhanda maathi ra sabai bhanda ramro hudo raichha... "Ma Ani Timi" dubai jana le socheko thiyenau hola ki kunai din yesari hami najik hunchhau... "Ma Ani Timi" Jhagada garchhau... ek arka sanga risauchhau ani ek arka sanga kaile ta boldenau pani tara pheri maya garchhau ani sangai haschhau pani.... sayad yehi nai yo "Ma Ani Timi" ko sambandha....

Sansar ma dherai sambandha haru banchhan... ani dherai sambandha haru tukriyera janchhan tara yo "Ma Ani Timi" ko sambandha kaile pani tukriyera jadaina... Hami Ek arka ma harauna sakchhau... Hami ek arka ma ramauna sakchhau jun aru kunai sambandha ma sakdenau... Ek din tadha hunu parda ko pida "Ma Ani Timi" dubai jana le mahasus garchhau tyo din "Ma Ani Timi" sayad dherai runchhau pani tara bholi ko nyano saath sangai tyo ek arka ko ansu puschhau pani.. yehi nai "Ma Ani Timi" ko mitho yaad ho... Zindagi ko sabai bhanda thulo sambandha nai "Ma Ani Timi" yehi ho...

"Ma Ani Timi" kati sumadhur chha yo sambandha.. sayad kunai kabi le yo sambandha payeko bhaye kabita korthyo hola... timi perfect bhanchhau malai ra timilai nai thaha chha malai perfect banaune timi parii nai hau... sayad "Ma Ani Timi" saath nabhayeko bhaye ma perfect hunthina ra hudina pani.. "Ma Ani Timi" thaha chhaina yo sambandha kasari suruwat bhayo ra kahan pugera tunginchha tara pani jaile samma hunchha "Ma Ani Timi" yehi dui sabda ma nai simit rahi rahanchha kinaki yehi dui sabda nai hamro lagi sabai bhanda thulo ani sabai bhanda mitho ra sabai bhanda pyaro chha... yehi dui sabda "Ma Ani Timi"...

Dedicated to My Chhuchi parii (Kalpana)...

Love.... "A Story..."

Okey this story happend many centuries ago before the starting of humans...

There used to live four things together at that time... "Madness"..."Laziness"... "Envy" and "Love"... One day it was so fine day everything was superb... they decided to play hide n seek....

It was Maddness's turn to seek and others to hide.... then other three went to hide... Madness started to count.. 1 ... 2... 99.. 100.. then he started searching his friends... He saw "Laziness" at the first because he was so lazy n he can't hide himslef properly...

Then after that... he saw "Envy"... he was near the river... after that he started searching "love".. but he couldn't find her.. he searched everywhere but he couldn't find love... so this is why love hides in us.... we want to hide love because of this reason.... but u know then "Envy" as his habit.. He showed Maddness where love is hiding... "LOVE" was hididng in a red rose.. so this is why we called red rose is the symbol of love.... because love has hide in it.. red rose is the symbol of love....

Then Maddness called love from out.. but the love hide and didn't come out... then Maddness become so rude with Love that he took a stick n started to bit the rose.. after few minutes.. love came out.. she was closing her eyes with her hands... u know her eyes were bleeding... her eyes were lost.... So this is how we called Love is Blind.. Love is blind from that time....

And everybody was upset now.. then Maddness confessed his mistake and told love that he will do anything to get her eyes back.... But u know wat love told, "YOu can't get my eyes back for it is no more use... But please Madness if u really want to help me.. then walk infront of me showing me the way..." Then from that time Madness walks in front of Love showing Love the way ahead....

So you know friends Love is blind and Madness Shows the way to love.. so the lovers were called mad after they fall in love.. As madness shows the way...

So how is the story guys n gurls...

Some Sweet memories....

You used to look me hiding from my eyes... and i used to predict as if i haven't seen that.. I was small but i used to like talking as elders.... I wanted to be adult.. i wanted to be honest and the most i used to like by loved everyone... I used to talk like this and you were the best audience of mine.... I used to laugh looking at your face when a moment i was not with you...


You came to me taking your hands as I used to read hands... I told your love will be the most handsome and loving person in this world. But you didn't leave my hand and my small fingers got pain... I cried "'Ouch" in pain... everyone looked at me and you left my hand staring me with you big eyes ... I smiled at you and ran towards the balcony... you came running behind me... the sweet fragrance of your body was comming from your side with the cool breeze.. I took a long breath and went towards my house..

My fingers were still paining.. I touched my own fingers and kissed the fingers you touched.... I didn't like to wash my hands that day... the next day we again met but i felt shy on myself and felt as if i have become young... i turned the other way and sat because i was shy looking at you..
I used to keep my hair long.. you told i look handsome on short hair.. I told you don't I look good now.. you told ya u r perfect for me how you are...

I was so boasty.. moody.. self spoken.. but don't know why i felt as if I have to do as you tell.. I liked your request and while returning home i cut my hair... came to home looked at the mirror I felt shy on myself.. no, no, it doesn't suit me... but still my face was smiling and happy....

Next day.. I didn't want to show my apperance so i put on cap on my head... but someone took out my cap from behind and whispered in my ear..." you are looking so handsome and loving"..

to be continued....

A Ghost Television...

In 1958 the Mason family bought their very first television - a Bush 5768 Model B3. They were looking forward to seeing all their favourite programs, though to be honest there was little choice in those days.

But the television brought them something quite unexpected - their very own ghost. Two days after buying the set, the family were sitting round it waiting for Here's Lucy to come on. The were much surprised when a hand thrust out of the set - even more surprised that it was in colour - for it was a black and white television. Thinking it was a fault in the set they called in a repair man. The engineer saw the apparition and ran off never to be seen again. After months of torment the ghost was finally exercised by the local priest and the Masons could at last enjoy their new television.

Wher'z the limitation???

War brings destroys and hatred all over the world.. but they tells there is limitations in destroying something but does the pictures shows any limitations?? Wat do your heart tells..